Griffin Poetry Prize 2005
International Shortlist
Book: On the Ground
Poet: Fanny Howe
Publisher: Graywolf Press
Fanny Howe reads from Kneeling Bus
From Kneeling Bus, by Fanny Howe
From Kneeling Bus
Hello air
Infinity is colonizing my mind
It’s as if a cornerstone is familiar
but not the buildingIt this illness, senility, amnesia, fatigue, wine,
medication or historydiminishing my memory
to the length of a bed?
Friends are often abandoned for passion
That Person walking the path I cut for himfrom the elevator
to the hotel barHis escape occurred
while no one was there to care.…
If daily bread extends its quota
of air; and if heaven can’t manage what earth canIf you are 55 degrees below zero and dying
there were no better times left!When telephone wires are words trying
to be one sound -and the gray flannel skyblurs on millions while they look forward
and no sense dares return emptyeach container creates its fear of portion.
See the icy shape of a cowboy on a mirror?
Animals turned into legends – The Tacky Little Lion –and silver bars
across the doors into the Church of Einstein?Hail, curved time: ‘This labor camp is my cathedral.’
…
I couldn’t tell the end
from the beginning
or one side from another
(west on the left?)But I did seek structure
in a minute.The models got smaller
the closer they were studied
too close I wiped my eyes
and cried.This created
a problem for separating
the last impression from
the most ancient.Two shoes on a curtain
Shadows thicker than a
wax-white stripe.
A floating paper bag
colored rubber
Drop-shaped leaves
and silver lifted
invisible thinking
about terrible nothing:
all in one blow.If I look up
I see the end bends down
into today’s eternity.I am no one.
I know hell and have hope.Let me travel the M11 down to Greystones
with my brotheras happy a soul as he is
and see the silver spearsof towers symbolically
built into the deep dream state.Let me who? Who will let me?
Whom am I addressing?Time covered sky
over multiple eyesA winter city’s
ice is an oyster
inside a pearl.A slow bus,
a frightened terrorist, a girl –My church is this machine rolling
the people along and sometimesmy church is a public latrine, sometimes
I drop on my knees and fallacross a chair like a coat in an empty room
Sometimes I whisper help
to interrupt my wheeling brain.I never learned how to live with a stranger
or an underground train.Sometimes my church is a Franciscan chapel
near Penn Station. Beads rattle.People sleep, mutter and curse.
When I leave this bus
a thanks to the driver is to cross and live
From On the Ground, by Fanny Howe
Copyright © 2004 by Fanny Howe
Griffin Poetry Prize 2001
International Shortlist
Book: Selected Poems
Poet: Fanny Howe
Publisher: University of California Press
Fanny Howe reads Veteran
Veteran, by Fanny Howe
Veteran
I don’t believe in ashes; some of the others do.
I don’t believe in better or best; some of the others do.
I don’t believe in a thousand flowers or the first robin
of the year or statues made of dust. Some of the others doI don’t believe in seeking sheet music
by Boston Common on a snowy day, don’t believe
in the lighting of malls seasonably
When I’m sleeping I don’t believe in time
as we own it, though some of the others mightSad lace on green. Veterans stamping the leafy snow
I don’t believe in holidays
long-lasting and artificial. Some of the others do
I don’t believe in starlings of crenelated wings
I don’t believe in berries, red & orange, hanging on
threadlike twigs. Some of the others doI don’t believe in the light on the river
moving with it or the green bulbs hanging on the elms
Outdoors, indoors, I don’t believe in a gridlock of ripples
or the deep walls people live insideSome of the others believe in food & drink & perfume
I don’t. And I don’t believe in shut-in time
for those who committed a crime
of passion. Like a sweetheart
of the iceberg or wings lost at seathe wind is what I believe in,
the One that moves around each form© 2000 the Regents of the University of California